I see dead people… =))

Ships that pass in the night, and speak each other in passing,
Only a signal shown, and a distant voice in the darkness; So on the ocean of life, we pass and speak one another,
Only a look and a voice, then darkness again and a silence.

With every person that furks you up, you lose a piece of your humanity!

Listening to “System Of A Down – Lonely Day” (embedded below). I had a long talk with a 4000 miles away friend. We have discussed about everything and nothing. It’s hard to explain. Think that you are in a mood to talk about yourself, about who you are, about your past (not quite), about your dreams, your wishes, your goals, your disappointments, your hopes, your heart, your soul; about YOU!. It is not planned. It is just a conversation, started from nowhere, started from the need to communicate; topics change fast, it is blurry, there are thoughts said, discussed, random pieces of conscience.

Well, you see… me and this friend have opposite ways of thinking in about every tiny or not tiny idea on this planet. I think black; it thinks white; I act black; it acts white. I like speaking to this friend because it calms me down; no matter how sad; how angry; how controversial, chaotic or tormented I feel, I discuss with it and, after presenting another point of view (like I said, totally opposite from mine) – I calm down and see things/people/situations more clearly. And sad I was…

A topic we have touched was my past experiences with some people I trusted and them disappointing me. In some cases – the first ones – I had not expected it and it hurt; it hurt a lot. In the rest that followed, I was “prepared” for it; I kept my doubts about them and the events did not left such deep scares. But the main debated idea was that, even in the latter cases, when I expected it and I got over it very fast, it still hurt. Not as the first time when I was disappointed, nor the second, or the third; but it still hurt, it still was bitter.

Geo: With every person that you trust, you (me) open yourself (myself) a little (more).
Geo: With every person that furks you up, you lose a piece of your humanity!
Friend: “With every person that furks you up, you lose a piece of your humanity!” – do you really believe this?
Geo: Yes.
Geo: There are no bad people, there are just people to whom bad things have happened!
Friend: I thought you were supposed to be the optimist
Geo: I am, I have never lost and I WILL NEVER LOSE trust in people, in the people to whom I open myself. But none the less, it is not about being optimistic or romantic, it is about people you have trusted, people you trust, people you will trust. The same people who will furk you up!

To sum up, with every person that lets you down (be it acquaintance, friend, family; or that rare person you’ll die for), you will be disappointed, it will make you (in a smaller or greater amount) doubt others and, indirectly, YOU! Humans are defined by emotions, by their amount of trust, by their share of openness. Trusting, communicating, letting others know you.

With every hit you get; with every event that leaves scares, you lose from your humanity. YOU BECOME MORE MATURE, MORE EXPERIENCED on the sinuous road of life. But my question is: where is your line? How many blows you have to take until you lose ALL your HUMANITY?